Post today

Alright, so for those of you reading this, I think you must understand me better, perhaps now. Remember though, I am person who is rarely at ease. Even today, I am thinking about how I will accomplish these aims I set for myself. Tomorrow I am going to Church to announce how the youth can become involved in two different volunteer projects - one called "baby haven" a place for unwanted and often "dumped", yes literally dumped in the trash babies and the other called "Catholic AIDS action". At the Catholic AIDS ACtion place, they have a literacy and numeracy program...
There I go again telling you about this idea of mine. Did I tell you I also turned down an opportunity to perform in a dance show this October because of this project, because they will clash in time and occur at different places.
Somehow, my organisational limitations anger me! I am angry! Even in my bag, I put my diary somewhere I cannot find it, untill only later I do. If I were more organized I could do so much more I say, but then again what would I loose out?
Those times with my family at home, when I just sit infront of the TV or cook wonderfull meals of my own design (or the recipes of my grandmother).

Today I bought a baking pan. I will bake at my home with it. I plan to bake bannana bread at the Church with it and share it with the candidates for the priesthood I have come to know there.
On Friday, I was there at the Church, because I met with our priest to discuss the volunteer project and I told him "You can help by announcing after mass that the youth group exists and asking all the members of the youth to stand up and get involved". Apparently, this worked in drawing the interest of the youths of Saint Mary's Parish in our city center, now will it work at our parish in the suburb of Pionnerspark?

Ahhh! Frustration at so many things. My dad not being home since Thursday and not responding to my calls, only my brother saw him yesterday. My parents are on the brink of divorce, and they have been on the brink of divorce for a long time now.
I ask for the Lord's peace but do I care to read his word?
Today , I went to practise essay writing for the GRE and I walked to the nearby library, only to find out I had forgotten my practise book!
The irony was that I took two taxis to go back home, get the book and come back to the library only to not end up using this book, because I focused exclsively on my writing, which needs alot of work...

Lord, please grant me your peace.