Monday, February 15, 2010

February 13th

Audition. I went to an audition today, I had not been to one in since, I dunno, over a year. It was the for the twentieth independence anniversary of Namibia, there is going to be a dance performance. I went there open – open to the possibility that it will be edifying to be part of the dance performance and with the desire to loose it, it being my body’s lethargic, lukewarm state, which I get tired off. I warmed up and then we were told to find a position all facing forward, towards Hamisch, one of the choreographers. He did wonderful roll downs of the back, head and hands to floor and push outs to a long ‘plank’ pose to come back. Those were standard modern. But then these steps, sweeping of the feet over the floor, like scoops and long legged high kicks to down as the body pivots to turn a quarter circle. “It’s actually Zulu”, Hamisch said if I asked whether the high kicks were a Nama stap – the movement resembled the kicking high and then feet together of this Namibian movement. No, they were not Namibian, in fact, there was no movement that I recognized as Namibian, nor did they announce anything to be Namibia. No theme, no idea, no movement. They were African – the contracting, supple chest that concave and convex, but we associate those with the West.

I was not captivated. I had fun and I danced reasonably well, give or take a few moves missed. I could have performed better, but I don’t think that will hinder me from being chosen. “See you soon” is what he told me, and I guess that’s what he meant as I walked from the Theatre and his shoulder brushed against my arm (he’s shorter). I wanted to just have fun and that’s what I did. I relegated thinking about the logistical problems of me taking part to after it was all over. I did, I even managed to create new movements during the improvisation.

I have to cut this reflection short, as I am writing it, I can hear my mother shouting at my brother for having taken the car out without asking her. He just laughs and says “Why are you shouting”. In any case, I think you understand the whole dance dilemma – it is actually not a dilemma, I just will write the review. Even when I was there, dancing, I knew that it would be fine, to choose to not partake and just write about it review it. Hey, even this blog is a testament to that! I may not be the best reviewer in the World, but I am creative and I can write. I think that’s all that’s necessary. That will suffice. Which of the two endings do you like better?

Monday, February 8, 2010

Update Feb 7th

Topsy Turvy day, in a way. I meant to download some articles and things about a survey of health facilities done in Kenya, but really now I am about to go to bed. It did not materialize.

Well it was not my fault, I could not use the internet at home, the modem was misplaceed in my brothers room, hidden.

I had my third driving lesson today, and I was driving in an area called Otjomuise, just a 10 mins from my house. There are shaccks there, mostly, shinny corrogated iron amidst the green hills or the rolling lanscape. My teacher is great. I will see him and will be driving again in 12 hours, about, since it is in the morning.

Then laster I went to return an overdue book. I did and went to the post office. But so many things caught my attention and crossed my mind there in the Windhoek City Center.
I thought of donating blood (but I am due for donation only tomorrow) and even going to the American cultural center.
I actually went there to withdraw the money I needed to pay the fine (I was just 30c short and that made me withdraw). I ended fasting through the lunchtime here. I was hungry, but I sat on two slabs of concrete, under a tree, against a wall, by the roadside not far from the place where I had to pay. And read. I read the book "To Chicago and Back" in Bulgaria, by Aleko Constantinov.

Then later in the library, I do go (I did not pay today, the que was too long, but I did meet a girl with whom I spoke in Afrikaans, here name is Renne, and she is from Luderitz, but lives here and studies at the Polytechnic) and read through books. There is a cool med anthro book I should borrow there.

I also stumbled upon a book biophysics, the same one in the lab where I worked, that belonged to Joshua Shaevitz, the biophysicist who share the whole megaspace with us, his lab is the first in the space from the Poe field.
I also found out tha the first Namibia contemporary dance company performed on Saturday, little did I know. I know all of the dancers, but none of them called me. I only found out through a facebook invite to become a fan of their group "first rain" dance company. They are gorgeous, at least one of the guys who dances is. I mean in the sense of his lines, he has gorgeos lines, the long linge from the toe to the other foot of a ponchee,like the one of a ballerina dipping down, with her back leg reaching up to the heavens.
I wonder why they did not tell me. I guess, they did not even consider asking me to audition. But anyway, I am involved in these other things here. My article writing does take up time, energy. I am focused on them and dance seems to have taken a hobby type of role in my life.But not to even tell me about the performance, I even saw on of the choreographers and performers on Friday, at the Mall and he did not mention it! I was there not to shop, but to cut through it on my way to Management Sciences for Health (Google them), cause I want an internship there. No longer this struggle, this struggle to understand why I am not "that person" who can just wake up and want to choreograph and dance, for my life. Now I am at peace.

Actually, I did wake up on Sunday, yesterday having dreamt that I was a clown and I made people laugh. I was extending my leg with heel jutting through the air as I flexed my foot, in a red clown costume. I also told jokes. Jokes, really me? I decided I wanted to become a "clinic" clown. In Namiba, they just started now, clinic clowns, for children that are sick. It is a great thing.

Sunday, January 31, 2010

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Haiti!

Hello dear readers I am welcoming you to another of my blogs. I want to start with a reflection on my week, but before let me just underline the disaster in Haiti and how our response is needed. Imaginate, non ci rendiamo conto del fatto che mentre che ci occupiamo di impegni quotidiani e affair della nostra vita, tante gente cerca di sopravivre, una vera lotta per la vita. Anzi, cene rendiamo conto solo quando siamo davanti alla TV, guardando le notizie del giornale e poi continuamo a vivere come sempre =( Imagine we do not realise that while we are occupying ourselves with our day to day business, we do not realise that people are struggling to survive. Actaully, we do realize this, but only when we are in front of the TV watching the news and then we move on.

How did we become so inured and desensitized to disasters? Anthropologists probably have looked at this phenomenon to understand the social structures and cultural constructs that allow us to bypass any serious, long term engagement with people who are suffering in places removed from our world, such as on the island of Haiti. In any case, I donated U$5 to the relief efforts in Haiti, it was online and took me less than 5 minutes.

Sunday January 31st

Hello dear readers I am welcoming you to another of my blogs. I want to start with a reflection on my week, but before let me just underline the disaster in Haiti and how our response is needed. Imaginate, non ci rendiamo conto del fatto che mentre che ci occupiamo di impegni quotidiani e affair della nostra vita, tante gente cerca di sopravivre, una vera lotta per la vita. Anzi, cene rendiamo conto solo quando siamo davanti alla TV, guardando le notizie del giornale e poi continuamo a vivere come sempre =( Imagine we do not realise that while we are occupying ourselves with our day to day business, we do not realise that people are struggling to survive. Actaully, we do realize this, but only when we are in front of the TV watching the news and then we move on.

How did we become so inured and desensitized to disasters? Anthropologists probably have looked at this phenomenon to understand the social structures and cultural constructs that allow us to bypass any serious, long term engagement with people who are suffering in places removed from our world, such as on the island of Haiti. In any case, I donated U$5 to the relief efforts in Haiti, it was online and took me less than 5 minutes. Please donate – whatever it may be – to save lives. It really makes a difference.

I am writing now after a long Sunday. I went to mass in the morning with my mother and I was supposed to meet up with an Italian lady, Barbara Castelli, that I met here in Windhoek (at the Aataba Contemporary dance performance in July 2009).

She did not make it, had to pick up her daughter from a farm nearby Windhoek in the morning. The friends of the daughter were apparently going horse riding and they could not take her with (kind of rude). I then went to the youth mass at Corpus Christi parish in Wanaheda, Katutura, what some may call the Ghetto side of town. The taxi driver I was in from Pioneerspark (where I always go every Sunday , usually with my mother) told me the history of the church in Pioneerskpark in relation to the one in Waneheda. Both are Catholic, but the one in Pioneerspark is just a road crossing away from the suburb of Hochlandpark. This suburb was called the Old Location, where black people used to live before the forced remove of 1959. One of our Namibian Heroines protested against this forced removed, and the police shot at her and the crowd. She fell and died amongst others that fled for their lives, their blood – as is in the Namibian National anthem – waters our freedom. People were forced to move to Katutura, which means “the place we cannot stay in Katutura”.

The youth mass in Wanaheda was resounding, it was loud, I heard the reverberations of dozens of voices of young men and women, blending together, alivening the whole church, reaching every one of the four walls and the slanted roof. The voices, so deep of the men were under the high voices of the ladies, it was rough, rugged, not professional, and full of life and potential. The church was really African for this reason, and that we also danced, in steps, during the offertory procession and as we stood in pews, singing songs in indigenous tongues. And there is the rhino stone for an altar. Covered in cloth, this black rock really made it all African.

When I was in the first mass, sitting next to my mother, I thought of the things I set myself. The goals and I have and I wondered whether I am living according to God’s Will or to my own, as the priest talked about in his homily (preaching). I though, all of a sudden of Dror, as I looked outside the rectangular window of the church, and how the peach brown hues of the wall broke to the light bright and blue of the world outside the window. The “bird of freedom” that is what his name means and I wondered to what extent he continued to dialogue with people, as he did at Brandeis under the DOME (Dialogue on Middle East). I wondered what he was doing and whether he found a job. I meant to write to him, but just as many other thoughts that flutter into my mind, it passed and it came again. The computer screen and the internet are not there at the instant – when I want to put my thoughts to posterity – so I am writing it now in my blog.

As far as the United World College experience is concerned, two experiences of the day come to mind. The first is a girl in our Catholic Youth Group who applied for the UWC scholarship, cause I announced in our group, it was advertised in the paper. I wonder whether her application made on time and whether she called the number in the add to make sure. The guys on our national committee, who select, are busy putting together a framework for it all, the selection process, rather than just making it up as they go along. Then, there was conversation I had this afternoon with the Bulgarian consulate to Namibia. He is a friend of our family – even before he became the consulate – and he told me about the genocide in Serbia. The international community – except Namibia – condemned the actions of the Serbian government against the Muslim (Albania) minority and voted for the sending of troops back then, in 1999. He told me how the genocide was a reaction to the killing of Serbian civilians – women and children – by the Albanian minority, who were instigated and armed by the US, according to him. Retribution followed swiftly and the international response completely ignored the fact that Serbs were also killed, that this was not a one dimensional ethnic cleansing inspired by some hate of Albanians. I think now to major conflicts in the world, and always when I have spoken to the people most viscerally affected – such as Palestinians or Orthodox (should I call them Zionist?) Jews – I always come away with the feeling of sympathy for the affected group and how unjustly they are treated. It is rare to find someone who can explain the position of his or her people while taking into account the view of the “other”.

About the “other”, I wrote about it in an article on non-communicable disease and AIDS, which I will soon send to the HIV clinicians’ society and a non-profit called Management Sciences for Health, with whom I want an internship. I wrote about how the Non-communicable disease are literally relegated to the “other” category of the patients health care card for ART treatment and how this categorization compromises surveillance efforts for chronic illnesses such as diabetes or heart disease. I guess I could have written more than just a paragraph about the “other” in this huge article, it reads like a major review on non-communicable diseases, but I think that would be a literary article as opposed to public health one.

Then, there are the flies, Drosophilas, in my kitchen. Our kitchen. I live at home, if you don’t recall. We have a peach tree and we collect small peaches, with small seeds inside, they are a mini variety. They rot quickly and flies congregate around them, flying over them. These fruit flies remind me of my lessons on development of the Drosophila melanogaster. I want to go into detail about the different genes, such as bicoid, hunchback, even skipped and the segment polarity genes, as well as shibire, a gene involved in the pinching on the

Christian salvation!

Last Sunday I read the Bible and more often than not, reading the Bible leaves my faith shaken, as was the case then. I read a part of the Epistle of St Paul to the Romans , chapter 9 verses 19-24:

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I find this verse very disturbing. It seems St Paul is telling us that God can choose to make two pots, one for keeping and the other for destroying (verse 19-22). As humans, we have no right to ask God why he does this. But of course we do! The whole idea of creating pots for destruction which are compared to humans is cruel, in my opinion. It is like we were made for hell and verse 24 corroborates this.

I felt increasingly frustrated with this verse, but then I read further. In Chapter 10 St Paul speaks about how he prays for the Jews to be save “quote verses 1 to 2”

I compare this to our Catholic Prayer, The Chaplet of the Divine Mercy, which has the principal words of “For the Sake of His Sorrowful Passion, have mercy on us and on the whole world”. So if St Paul can pray for salvation of others. Chapter speaks about the unification of Jew and Gentile in Christ and how the message needs to be proclaimed “God is the same Lord of all and richly blesses all who call to him. As the scripture says, ‘Everyone who calls out to the Lord for help will be saved?’ ” (10:12-13)

So then he speaks about spreading the message and how that is necessary for people to be saved. However, then it makes no sense with what was said earlier. No-one can be doomed to destruction, because really, does it not mean that we can all be saved, so God does not purposefully make us for damnation.

Concerning the Jews, in Roman 12 Paul affirms how that even though the Jews may reject the Christ, God cannot break his first covenant, His promise to them and reject them “ Romans 12 verse 29-32”

Again, the universal mercy is reaffirmed here.

It just makes more confused. Perhaps this faith is syncretic and there are elements that are not completely consistent. Nonetheless, I am in love with Christ and I believe he will figure it all out.

I just remember the talk I had with David Lewa, I think the last day of reunions 2009, we were outside Spelman and he was about to leave, to take time off. We spoke about this and we prayed, we stretched out our arm and held them and prayed. I was questioning this idea of condemnation and he prayed for me. David Lewa is a great guy, another example of a Christian that draws others to Christ by virtue of his sincerity.

All theology boffins, Zach Marr, JD Walters, Jay Han would you comment on this? Morgan, my friend from Namibia, please also comment on this, you too are a theology student. I have great admiration for you, I personally could not study this “professionally”, it would drive me mad.

Saturday, January 23, 2010

Heart diseas and Mondesa

When we think of heart disease, we think of heart attacks and strokes – something white people tend to suffer from. We the logo of the heart association on tubs of unsaturated (expensive) margarine, the kind used by white people on television adverts. Indeed, those we consider as white people are often genetically predisposed to suffer from heart disease. In South Africa, for instance, it was found that 1:200 Afrikaaners have a family history of coronary heart disease. However, let us not delude ourselves into thinking that cardiovascular illnesses – a blanket term for several heart diseases – are limited to whites only. The risk factors necessary for the development of cardiovascular illness are a diet high in fat and refined carbohydrates, smoking, alcohol consumption and lack of exercise and these cut across racial lines. A confluence of these risk factors occurs in the township, where people have few dietary options, live amidst substance abuse and rarely have access to recreation facilities for exercise. Therefore, the finding that most deaths due to cardiovascular illness occur in the Kayletchia township of Cape Town and the fewest in the wealthier southern suburbs was not surprising for South Africa. So infact, it is poorest people, who are often black, who are most risk of cardiovascular illness.

It is against this background that the poor community of Mondesa in our very own Swakopmund, Namibia, is loosing an outlet for soccer playing, for recreation, for cardiovascular exercise.

I planned to finish this letter above to The Namibia, but I opted to write an article on chronic diseases instead, where I will tie in this travesty of closing the sports filed.